Well I officially am a bad blogger! I really have no excuse except that I am busy?! Ha yeah right..
I have done a lot of thinking over the past week and have now decided that I absolutely HATE hate birth control. Reason being?? I feel like a crazy person when I am on it! I have been on and off birth control since getting married. I was getting really bad migraine headaches so Will and I finally decided that it wasn't worth it since my headaches would make living almost impossible. All good right...wrong. Somewhere among all the changing of pills trying to find one that worked I got pregnant in July! Ekkk! So excited! Then I had a miscarriage (which by the way people, REALLY sucked! Anyways..ever since then I have been having really bad cramping. We finally went to the doctor the end of Dec. (yeah I'm one of those nurses who is a bad patient and has to be forced to go to the doc) After a million questions he think that I may have Endometriosis. Hard to describe but pretty much it cause scar like tissue to build up on your female parts. So my OBGYN decided BC is going to be the best thing for me at this time...it suppose to help with all the cramping and pain. So BACK to the above statement on why I HATE birth control! I am SO moody!! I cry at the drop of a hat ( I usually am never like that) I cry at everything. Oh and the cramping and pain!??! yeah its still there... Lately I have been especially moody when it comes to the subject of: Babies... Mainly I think its because I love kids and I really want my own one day! I think some of my problem comes from the fact that I have NO idea what is going on with my body. If I do have endometriosis it can cause infertility. We are suppose to be going back to the OBGYN in the middle of Feb. so hopefully then we will find out what is going on. Its just frustrating sometimes when it seems babies are everywhere & it seems like everyone I know is pregnant. I have to keep telling my self that God has a perfect plan and he knows what he is doing, but its still hard sometimes. I have decided through all this that my husband is the most thoughtful man ever! He was so sweet listening to me (when I finally decided to talk to him about my feelings) I feel like he understands my feelings! He great! Very supportive! I am SO blessed!! So my plans for the week is to try and remember that "God's got it all under control and I don't have to worry about a thing!
Don't worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand~Philippians 4:6-7~
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