The Winds of Change are a Blowin'

Do you ever get that restless feeling?? You know that you feel like something is going to change or your ready for a change?? Well I have that feeling! I have been doing some serious thinking about ways to increased my nursing knowledge--you know learn new things. I always seem to freak myself out and get scared that I will fail epically at anything new that I try so sometimes I end up not even trying. I learned something new this evening, however that made me feel a little more brave :-). I was talking to our neighbor that is a doctor in residency and I was amazed how they are similar they feel to nursing students as they come out of school they are just as clueless as nurses are---and I mean that in THE nicest way :-) Truth be know it doesn't matter if you are a MD or and RN when you get out of school you are CLUELESS!! Until you actually start the "hands on" stuff thats when you really start to learn!!

It just made me feel that I am not the only one out there who gets scared at new things. Challenge is good for the soul! :-) I have decided that I am READY for a new CHALLENGE!! So Mr. Challenge bring it on!!

Feeling the Blues

Was going to blog then changed my mind. Can't find words to put down how I feel right now. Let me think on it and I'll get back to ya...

From Trash to Treasure

So Sunday as Will and I are driving home from swimming when I saw this bright red thing in the dumpster at the church near our house and wellllll I made Will turn around and go back to see what it was---Okay people I know what you are probably thinking, eeeww nasty why in the world would you want something that has been in the trash??? And does this girl go digging in the trash on a regular basis?? Well in answer to your question, no I don't usually dig through the trash but this caught my eye.

We turned around and went back to the dumpster where I proceeded to see what this "red thing" was. It turned out to be a table!! It had a big hole in the center of the table but the table as a whole was very sturdy. Well it just so happens that I have a VERY talented husband who is good with carpentry so he is going to repaint and replace the center with a new piece of wood. I think that it is going to be a awesome coffee table for my living room when he gets it all done and best of all it was FREE :-)

I got to thinking about how the red table was like my life before my Saviour came in and took over. Without God there is a big whole that needs to be filled. The world will just toss you aside but God will come in and make something as sad as that "old red table" beautiful. He fills the hole and makes you a new person!! Isn't He awesome!?!?!

Anyways here is the "before" picture and I will post a "after" when Will gets it done. Use your imagination people. Its going to be great!!

Well I have absolutely nothing to write about. Isn't that amazing. I am getting really excited about my vacation with Will's family. We are going to Gatlinburg. I think that it will be lots of fun. I have only been one time and I didn't get to stay long. Will has been several times and says its really pretty.

Pam is back (our DON see blog "Too Big a Shoe to Fill") and I must say I am pretty happy about it! I actually really enjoyed filling in for her. The experience was really good and I got to learn a whole lot. It was a different side to Hospice I hadn't seen. I was able to learn so much from it. It was nice to have a change in pace from the normal day to day activity of seeing my patients. I am ready to hit the road again I suppose. But I guess that will have to wait till after I get back from my vacation. I was suppose to start going to see patients next week but our office manager is going to be out for a week so I am going to stay in the office another week and help Pam.

My friend Kristian is having a baby and I am SO excited for her. I know her baby with will be just precious! Her name is going to be Bella Grace (great middle name right!!??!) She is in need of lots of prayer right now because she is only 7 months along and and her water broke last night. They are going to try and keep her from going into labor for another 4 weeks or however long they can. So please pray that all will be well with both Kristian and sweet baby Bella. Oh, I know the reason I started think about Kristian and her baby was that I was going to do some sucker pots for her baby shower--which I am sure will be moved to a later date :-) This was going to be super cute and super easy!

First I bought some some plain pots (50% off at Hobby Lobby) and spray painted them

pink--for a girl :)

And then I used a stencil (Hobby Lobby) and painted on some white flowers--with the assistance of my FINE artistic hubby. After I painted them on I filled in the center with a light green and made some edging and lines on the petals of the flower to make it more realistic and then....

Tahh daaahhh! A beautiful cute pot to hold my suckers in! I am going to fill the pots up with white play sand and then cover the top of the dirt with little pearls--cause little girls like that kind of stuff :-) Then just add these super cute "Its a Girl" white chocolate suckers

wrapped in cello bags tied with ribbon---but candy making is for another day :-) Okay so I lied about having nothing to write about.

What a Blessed Girl I Am!

Ahhh life is great. As I write this I am lying on the couch watching my HUSBAND clean the house! Yes people I know what you're are all thinking "Man, what a lucky girl she is. I wish my husband cleaned the house etc. etc" And you would be right!!! I am a very lucky girl!! Well actually I like to think of it as blessed! I really been doing a lot of thinking over the past few days at work how blessed I really am!! Several of my girlfriends have husbands who are cheating on them. Well that got me to thinking about all the people in the world who had gone through a divorce or where currently living in an unfaithful marriage. Its so sad right now that the divorce rate is at an all time high. Over half the people who get married end up divorced! Scary right?? I think our biggest problem is of course is that God is not the center of our marriage. The world as it is right now is quickly spiraling downward. Sometimes I feel like we are living in a modern day Sodom & Gomorrah. Maybe even worse.

A lot of people no longer take it serious what it means get married. Men and women both are

tempted constantly by things on TV, the Internet and in magazines.

Its so sad that most people who enter into a marriage cant even trust the person that they are

married to. I can't even begin to imagine that. Every day I think of how very blessed I really

am because not only is my husband and AWESOME house cleaner ( ;-) ) He loves me so much

and I never even have had to EVER think about him being unfaithful to me. God really blessed

me when he gave me Will :-)

On a lighter note: Happy Saturday!!!!

One Year

Wow! I can't believe that I have been married for almost a year now! One week from today will be our anniversary! I can't believe how fast this last year has went by. So many things have happened. We have had a interesting first year thats for sure! I am really excited about our trip we are taking! We are going to Chattanooga, TN and then over to Atlanta, GA. Please pray the rain stays away. Everything we are planning to do is outdoors. Although how fitting is that since it rained cats and dogs on our wedding. We are doing the whole Lookout Mountain thing in Chattanooga. I hear Chattanooga is a really pretty city especially downtown. I went to priceline to get our rooms--and can I just say its my new favorite way to get hotels!!! We are staying in all four star hotels the whole time and we paid 65$ a night! How awesome is that!?! I have booked us a Bed & Breakfast for Sunday night which is our anniversary. See isn't it cute??I am pretty excited about it! I can't wait to get away for a little while. I am still drawing a blank however on what to get him as an anniversary present. I can't seem to come up with anything.

:-( He has already got my my present--at least he said it was my anniversary gift. A new dining table for our "formal" dining room. Its really pretty! Now have to find something to go on it.

It's A Girl!!!!!!

Hello all my blogger friends. I am still here (in case you missed me and wondered) Life is super busy! I am still having to work as the DON in our office and its about to run me to the ground. I can't wait for Pam to get back!! I really miss her! We have been super busy, which is good I guess but it will make you soooooo tired!

I have some exciting news!!! I have a baby!!...Now calm down, before you get carried away and start sending me well wishes this is not the kind of baby you have to get up with every 2 hours during the night or change a poopie diaper, the only thing I will be changing is the OIL on this baby...I got a new car!!! It is SOOOO awesome! Will brought it to my work on Wednesday with a HUGE red ribbon on the top of it. I was so freaking AWESOME!

It is pretty awesome! It's just what I wanted!! He did so good! Can I just say I have the BEST husband in the whole wide world! He spoils me rotten! He brought it to my work with a full take of gas--guess he thought I would want to show it off or something haha--the car tag and inspection sticker on. It was GREAT!! I am so in love!!

What a Weekend

I don't have a clue where to begin! This has been a crazy weekend! Some good, and some not so good. I guess I will start from Friday afternoon when I was leaving work....Okay so I'm driving home from working excited *yea!!* because Will and I are suppose to leave to go to Atlanta for the weekend. Will's parents go several times a year for the Gift Market to buy for their store. So we decided that we would go and just hang out. Will wanted to look at "artsy" furniture :-) Anyway back to driving home. I was by the Wal-Mart on West Main Street and was slowing down for the light. There was a truck in front of me and I was thinking I need to call Will and let him know I was on the way home--no people I was not on my phone when this happened-- All of a sudden I get thrown into the truck in front of me, bounce off the back of truck, my airbags deployed and my windshield cracked. It was the weirdest thing ever. I just kind of sat there in a daze. I swear I think I shook my head to clear the birds flying around--you know like the cartoons when the characters get knocked down and the little birdies fly around--I remember thinking "Crap did I just hit the truck in front of me--I wasn't going that fast???" Turns out the guy behind me wasn't paying

attention and was doing about 35-40 and hit the back end of me which cause my poor little Corolla to go flying into the back end of the truck. Poor car is gone! You can't really seen the damage is this picture--I didn't think to take a picture until they where towing my car. I wasn't hurt, I am very stiff however. Now on to the fun part of my weekend--we went on to Atlanta and got there kind of late. Saturday was absolutely BeAuTiFuL! We did a lot of walking around. We went to Ikea--its pretty awesome but a word of advice, go with a plan! There is a TON of stuff.

Like I said earlier, Will wanted to look at some artsy furniture. He bought this chair that he had been wanting for some time now

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Oh and today we went to this Exhibition called Bodies Exhibition. It was VERY awesome! I would

highly recommend this to anyone! Check it out! Very educational.

Toooo big a shoe to fill

Wow, what can I say about today??? Well for starter I will begin with the fact that our DON (director of nursing--my rock, well probably everyones) has been out for 3 weeks with the flu and pneumonia and then was put in the hospital with further complications. She is very sick and has a long recovery ahead--but I will elaborate more on that later.

Today I had the joy (yes that is a sarcastic joy) of "trying" to take Pam's place while she is out. She got the flu and then on top of that she got what the doctors thought to be pneumonia but where unable to get her blood count to go down even after multiple antibiotics. She ended up in the hospital and had to have a cyst-like mass removed from her lungs that had built up. She is looking at a 6 week long or more recovery time and we are all missing her VERY much!! I am attempting to help out with her job until she is able to return.

First of all I think that a lot of people probably take for granted all Pam does and has to put up with. From all the paperwork and keeping that straight--and I can say that, cause today I had a LOT of it today---scheduling, taking care of complaints, audits, talking to all the corporate folks and everything else in between, I don't see how she keeps it all straight. I feel very blessed to work under such a great person as Pam. I really and honestly couldn't have asked for a better DON. She will back you up in a heart beat and bend over backwards to help you, give you multiple times to get something right and she doesn't get bothered or act like we are ruining her day by calling her 50,000 times a day---or when we call her when we are on call and need something. :-)

Like I said earlier, we miss her VERY much and can't wait for her return!! This day--and I am sure in the days to come--has made me realize what a big job Pam has and there is NO way I could ever fill her shoes!!

Happy St. Patty's Day!!!!

One Tired Nurse

So I went back to work today. That probably was a mistake being just three days from my surgery. Oh well what can I say, I'm a hard headed nurse. We make the worst patients! So I went to the office with the expectation of seeing "a few"--3 maybe 4 pts--and then working on paperwork and staying in the office. Well that didn't work out so well. I think I ended up seeing like 8. I had to bend over to clean out this lady's stump and redress it--took me forever. She had a knee amputation that had got infected (it was SO nasty!! I took a picture but I'll spare yall...yeah for those of you who have never had abdominal surgery, it really hurts to bend over!! It ended up being 5 when I got off. Why is itwhenever I plan to get off early it never happens! It was one thing after another. By the time I got home I was so tired that when my husband said something about "medical bills" I started crying (I'm telling you people its these bc pills! Make me so dang moody) So I cried for a few minutes, did some laundry--my way of coping lol--then Faith (my sissy) made me

supper--under the instruction of her "bossy" big sis! So three hours later, a Lortab, TV, and my computer, I'm feeling much better! Word of advice to anyone having surgery; take plenty

of time off to rest fully! :-) Oh and apple pie à la mode yummy!

Surgery Daze

Well I had surgery yesterday for my stomach cramping. We had to be at the hospital at 8:30 which was good for Will because he is not a morning person and if we had to be there earlier I have this feeling we wouldn't have made it! Anyway when we get there--I was starving cause I couldn't eat or drink after midnight--they asked me a bunch of questions had to change into a sexy (not) hospital gown.

Will made fun of me cause I put makeup before I went to have surgery..please people I will be putting makeup on in labor on the way to the hospital!!! haha I can't help myself..Anyway then I got my IV....

I had a really sweet nurse named Monica. Can I just say I love the people who work at the Womens Center! They are some of the nicest people I know! I felt so loved cause cause lots of people came to check on me! Even my bestie from work, Stephanie came!! :-) They finally came and got me at 10ish--I was so nervous and I didn't think that it would ever be time. They took me and Will back to holding in surgery--can I just say I felt goofy riding on the stretcher. People look at you funny---My husband probably would say that I make that up in my head and I probably do. Dr. Young came and checked on me, by the way people he is GREAT!! Takes time to talk to you and he even called to check on me today! The Anesthetist Jimmy I think was his name came in and gave me some "happy" drugs"--made me not worried about having surgery! haha I remember rolling back to the surgery room, having a mask put over my face and the next thing I remember was waking up in recovery at 12:30! Its so weird.I really don't remember that much about yesterday I was so sleepy! I would wake up for a bit then doze back off. Much to my husbands regret I didn't say anything crazy, although Dr. Young tried to convince me I did! I have the best husband in the world! He has been taking good care of me! He treats me like a Queen! :-) I was sleepy today but feeling much better. Still very sore! I ventured to Hobby Lobby (my favorite store EVER) and I think that was a mistake. By the time I got home I couldn't hold my head up and my stomach was hurting. I was back asleep before I could count to 10. On the bright side the doctor called me this afternoon and said the test where inconclusive and he could not say if was or was not endometriosis. Said if it was then I should start to feel better and as long as I stay on bc it usually doesn't get any worse. Thanks everyone for all the thoughts and prayers!!

God's Got It Under Control!

Well I officially am a bad blogger! I really have no excuse except that I am busy?! Ha yeah right..

I have done a lot of thinking over the past week and have now decided that I absolutely HATE hate birth control. Reason being?? I feel like a crazy person when I am on it! I have been on and off birth control since getting married. I was getting really bad migraine headaches so Will and I finally decided that it wasn't worth it since my headaches would make living almost impossible. All good right...wrong. Somewhere among all the changing of pills trying to find one that worked I got pregnant in July! Ekkk! So excited! Then I had a miscarriage (which by the way people, REALLY sucked! Anyways..ever since then I have been having really bad cramping. We finally went to the doctor the end of Dec. (yeah I'm one of those nurses who is a bad patient and has to be forced to go to the doc) After a million questions he think that I may have Endometriosis. Hard to describe but pretty much it cause scar like tissue to build up on your female parts. So my OBGYN decided BC is going to be the best thing for me at this time...it suppose to help with all the cramping and pain. So BACK to the above statement on why I HATE birth control! I am SO moody!! I cry at the drop of a hat ( I usually am never like that) I cry at everything. Oh and the cramping and pain!??! yeah its still there... Lately I have been especially moody when it comes to the subject of: Babies... Mainly I think its because I love kids and I really want my own one day! I think some of my problem comes from the fact that I have NO idea what is going on with my body. If I do have endometriosis it can cause infertility. We are suppose to be going back to the OBGYN in the middle of Feb. so hopefully then we will find out what is going on. Its just frustrating sometimes when it seems babies are everywhere & it seems like everyone I know is pregnant. I have to keep telling my self that God has a perfect plan and he knows what he is doing, but its still hard sometimes. I have decided through all this that my husband is the most thoughtful man ever! He was so sweet listening to me (when I finally decided to talk to him about my feelings) I feel like he understands my feelings! He great! Very supportive! I am SO blessed!! So my plans for the week is to try and remember that "God's got it all under control and I don't have to worry about a thing!

Don't worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand~Philippians 4:6-7~